|Posted by Ryanoff on May 7, 2018 at 9:05 PM|
Where do I even begin.
It’s been what, 8 years now? I’m almost 22. I have my own home, my own bed, and for the first time in my whole life I feel free. I’ve made and lost new friends, I’ve worked my first job and hopefully find my second. I’m in control of my life for once, and i can finally chase those impossible dreams.
I’d like to say I remember all of those great, fun times we’ve had but, sad to say they’re just fractured memories at this point. Long story short I’ve taken alot of mental and unfortunately physical head trauma over the years, maybe thats why I can’t remember it all. Maybe I was always forgetful and just forgot that I forget. Maybe I’ve subconciously blocked all those memories, the good and bad. All I know is that during all those hard times, you guys were there. I know I wouldn’t even be here without you two.
But even as the good times fade away, so do all the bad ones. I’m no longer suicidally depressed. I’m able to take care of myself now, physically and mentally. I’ve even learned to shower, as silly as that seems a thing to be learned. I’m now on a new project, with new friends. I’m still as lazy as I’ve ever been but, now I can work on improving. I have a future I once thought lost.
My plan is to save up money and move somewhere cheap and warm. A couple years in America with my friends, I’ll then move to Japan to chase my dream of animation. I’m medically frail, so I might have to live off disability. I might not even reach Japan. But thats fine. I’ve finally reached a state of peace within myself, a type of closure with the simple act of living my life to its fullfilment. I’m rambling.
I hope you’re all doing well and one see this. I’ve made a Discord server in place of Skype. If you don’t have it and still use Skype I highly recommend it to you. Click on the link below to join my server and message me, I’d love to catch up with either of you and continue our journey as eternal friends.
And with that, it ends. This has been Ryan Off, with this websites final update.
Until we meet again.